Sunday, November 28, 2010

Unanswered Prayers


If I could be on the other end of my prayers, I would probably roll my eyes. There were a few years in my life that a handful of prayers were on shuffle. There were answers that I wanted, and I was impatient and sick of dating.

There are a few memories throughout my single life that stand out to me, some of which were more painful to go through than I thought. I remember begging to know that I would have a chance to be a wife and mother. I remember going to each sibling, cousin, roommate, co-worker, and friends' weddings. I remember feeling excited for each one of them. I also remember the ride home and laying in bed each night after a bridal shower or wedding. I remember feeling like it was never going to be my turn. I remember feeling as if all of my prayers went unanswered.

All I wanted was to see a little flash of my future. I wanted to see a ring on my finger and a crib in my future bedroom.

Last week Sean and I were able to celebrate 365 days of being married. I was driving home and emotion flooded over me when I looked down and saw my wedding ring resting on my swelling belly. I realized that my prayers didn't go unanswered, they were answered in a way that I couldn't have dreamed up on my own.

This past year Sean and I have done a LOT of growing in areas such as communication, patience, understanding, humility, compromise, financial planning, and unconditional love. I have also learned that I love having him next to me in bed, the grocery store, at church, in the car, in the kitchen, here, there, and everywhere. When I was single I couldn't have imagined, or prayed for, a more perfect fit.

I am one lucky girl. I love my husband, he loves me, and together we love this growing baby.
26 weeks- working at a military event

27 weeks

10 comments:

Ali or Mike said...

Isn't is amazing how the Lord works? Your words make me even more grateful for my husband. Thanks!

M.C. Sommers said...

I can't believe it's been a year! Congratulations!

BTW-- will you be in Utah at any time in the near future?

Will said...

That's so weird (and yet understandable) that you were so nervous about that aspect of your life. The only doubt I ever had was whether the husband would be good enough to deserve you and from what I can tell, he totally does. (maybe I'd 'know' him better if he wrote every once in a while!)

The Way I See It said...

You made me cry. YOu have a gift with words. You should write a book. Totally sucked me into your world. I am still...SO happy for you. Love you.

Zinkand Family said...

You are seriously the cutest pregnant lady ever! I am pregnant right now right 4 months and i do not look that cute!!!! I am excited for you and I am glad that your prayers were answered!! I remember having fun FB chats with you before you guys got married!!!

Sheena said...

Isn't it amazing to look back and see how the Lord answered our prayers? I'm always amazed and feel so blessed. Congrats on 1 year!!!

Bre And Drew said...

Congratulations rachel, soak it up cause you deserve every second! :) love ya girl!

Jenn said...

I love this post! I remember the same thing- weddings and bridal and baby showers of others and I thought it would never be my turn. I'm so glad things turned out for you- I haven't met him but your husband sounds amazing and like a perfect match for you. The two of you will make amazing parents I'm sure. I just wish you lived closer so we could keep in touch better.

erika herman said...

Congratulations on your anniversary! You look fantastic. You are a stick everywhere, but that perfect round belly. I love it.

Da Denninghoff's said...

Thank you for that wonderful insight!