Tuesday, November 10, 2009

11 days to go.....

....and it seems like forever!

What happens 11 days before you get married? Well, for me a few things:

Satan is trying to befriend me-- his friendship is unwanted, but he seems to appear everywhere. He is appearing when I have to say 'good night'. He is appearing when Sean says something sweet and I turn it, in my head, into something completely different. He is appearing when I don't want to serve anyone, but do things for myself. He is appearing in the middle of the night by placing doubts in my head, that are never there when I wake up. He appeared in my attitude when I got frustrated with our wedding coordinator and left her an unpleasant message. He is helping me focus on negative things. And lastly, he is trying to displace the faith in my heart with fear.

I have words for you Satan, and they go something like this:
"The weather is nice here in Pittsburgh. I know it is hot where you are. I am not trading what I have, or am going to have, with your hot and miserable atmosphere."

7 comments:

Brittany said...

you can make it Rachel!!

britt and jacob said...

rachael, i love that! you are amazing!! i got your blog from crystal, im so excited for you to get married! you know how i just got married a few months ago? i felt the exact same way! and actually the last two weeks were the worst! so just endure my friend, and it does get better!!! and the actual day is the best ever! you should watch my wedding video, my best friend tia made it and i just got it back, its on our blog, i just posted it! its so happy, it'll make you so excited! im so stoked for you, it'll all go just as you hope, even though right now it prob feels like everything is so crappy and stressful and annoying and you prob just wish it was over and you could run away! but really it is wonderful and you have the best right attitude and you are hilarious, i love what you told satan:) but it is so true, he is a dirty little jerk and he does do all those things and it is so exhausting to fight him off, but we just have to and it is so worth it in the end! and you will feel the rewards of your efforts so soon, i promise! well i say it all with love and hope for your fabulous day coming so soon!
love britt davis (lyndsay and crystals friend who she does my hair:)

Stephanie and Daniel said...

You tell him Rachel! For me being engaged was a bitter sweet moment. More bitter than sweet. You are going to Love being married. It really is the best thing EVER! Good luck

Da Denninghoff's said...

Rachel That is so wonderful that you are able to discern that. The last couple of weeks were hard for Mark and I as well. The best thing to do is stick to a curfew no matter what and try your best to do group dates. 11 days then you'll be with each other for eternity. I'm excited for you!

Bryan and Jamie said...

I have to agree with everyone else here too! Go you for being aware and stay strong! 11 days is going to FLY by! Congrats!

Liz Morrill said...

11 days away, and then you blink and it is 11 years past (or 19 years)!!! really it will go by fast, and you will be kneeling across the altar from him!!! and then Eternity can start!!! I love you so much and am so excited to for you and Sean.
Liz

Will said...

Yeah, that kind of heat would lead to permanent hair damage for sure.